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Monday, December 1, 2008

Things I thought I could be a Grown-up About...

But I just can't.

* The fact that someone stole my i-Pod from my desk on the Friday before Thanksgiving Break. (Pisses me off and hurts my feeling, every single time I think about it.)

* Bringing home papers to grade over the break. (The cat LOVED them. Loved to SLEEP on them, that is!)

* Having ice-cream in the house. (Must. Eat. Chocolate. Ice. Cream. MUST!)

* Going to the yarn store with money in my pocket. (Cause and effect disconnect, I sweartadog.)

* Telling old stories about students who have graduated. (Isn't piercing your scrotum with a safety pin in the bathroom on a bathroom pass AND THEN showing all the girls AND a substitute teacher what you've done, some sort of guaranteed admission into the 'Stupidity Hall of Fame'? I mean the location of the piercing alone should guarantee the guy a slot in the Darwin award's DNA elimination challenge event, right?)

* The fact that Sarah Palin LOST. (Still dancing whenever I think about that one.)

* Scoring a point in my ongoing verbal sparring with my daughter. (She's vowed to disown me if I ever do my funky chicken dance in public.)

* The big "How to handle the family Christmas present" decision. (My mom told my sister and I to make a decision. We did. We were promptly over-ridden by my mom's best friend, who also gets a say.)

* The suggestion that the family calendar was NOT made more charming by the smutz on the faces of the short people. (I thought it was more charming, and I live with short people and smutz all day. I think mom was just being difficult.)

* The direct statement that mom and dad get enough calendars and that a family calendar was not a suitable gift. (Seriously, what crawled up her arse and died anyway?)

* The 'WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SMELL!!' problem in the staff lunch room. (Considering the fact that the bathroom opens into the lunchroom, what does it say about my sensibilities that a malfunctioning HEATER is the thing giving us the biggest case of the fits! Well, for one thing, it probably says that the room smelled like it was ABOUT TO BURN DOWN!!!)

* The fact that I still think dog farts are funny as hell. (I swear I've got the maturity of a four year old.)

* The fact that I started our day back from vacation with a movie. (Okay--in my defense, I promised them one, and for the most part, they were REALLY very good that last week before Thanksgiving.)

* Going to bed on time so I'm not a total zombie princess in the morning. (But I don't really start to write until after 11:00 pm!!)

* The fact that I will, in all probability, receive a rejection letter in short order from Loose-Id, where I submitted 'Yearning' and hope to submit 'Waiting'. (Why don't they like me? Why? Why? Whyyyyyyyyyyyy?)

*Stephanie Meyer--who wants to bet that SHE didn't have to choose between publishing HER next book and buying the kids Christmas presents this year? (If was really a grown-up, I would have let this go, wouldn't I? Failure is probably my karmic response to this very thing, I can tell!)

* The fact that, even though I will, in all probability, receive a rejection letter from Loose-Id, I have already spent the theoretical (and probably very small) advance they might have given me if they accepted 'Yearning'. (Dammit, it's Christmas, and we have no money, and I want to spoil my kids!!!)

* The fact that even though I will, in all probability, never, ever, ever, be a writer for a traditional press and I should probably throw in the towel right now because this insane obsession of mine can't possibly be good for my family or my physical or mental health, all I can think about, like a constant wail in the back of my head, is that I don't have enough money to publish Bitter Moon II right now. I just edited it again--most times EVER on a manuscript. I think it's very possibly really, really good. (How narcissistic am I, that this breaks my heart? I can't even answer that question objectively, I just can't.)

8 comments:

KnitTech said...

Either you will get accepted or you won't; no point in stressing.

Louiz said...

What's wrong with a calendar? Burning heater smell is deeply horrible and goes straight to some buried part of our brains - Fire!

Fingers crossed over loose-id.

Oh yeah, and kids *are* mucky. It's part of being a kid, surely...

Verificatin word is: sysesse!

Galad said...

One of my favorite writers of all time Madeleine L'Engle, wrote in obscurity for ten years or more while raising her kids. She nearly quit writing many times. It came down to that fact that she couldn't live without writing that kept her going.

Even if you are never a huge commercial success, you are using your talent and making an impact on lives.

The funk and normal human envy will pass and Bitter Moon II will be published (just maybe not on the timetable you envisioned). I, for one, am looking forward to it!

Donna Lee said...

I have hopes for BMII (hee hee, I am just immature enough to like that abbreviation). Nothing you put that much love into should languish. The universe will come around. And what's wrong with calendars? I made a great one last year for my aunts. It had some really good photos in it, if by "really good" you mean embarassing and silly.

Julie said...

If we're gonna be pissed off writers, I have another log for the fire.

Laurell K Hamilton.

Fucking fuckity fuck.

NeedleTart said...

Oh, yes. BM2 is *that* good. If the submission offices at publishers see it and don't offer you a life-time retainer in the five figures they're nuts (especially with all that wonderful editing......) Seriously, people, just you wait. I laughed, I cried....I may just have to buy three or a dozen copies.....
Verificaion? flerses

TinkingBell said...

Truly - BM1 and 2 are both awesome - and I agree with Julie - Laurell K Hamilton used to be able to write - but about three years ago I stopeed reading because she stopped writing anything resembling a story, dialogue, plot or characters.

I just talked to a best selling author who wrote 6 books before publication and then wrote 3 more before being published again - never give up hope - we certainly haven't!

Roxie said...

Sweetie, you are a writer. Resistance is futile, The economy sucks and anyhow, writers need to suffer. Right? It will broaden and deepen your experience.

Don't hit me!