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Monday, January 12, 2009

Can't talk now, I'm proofing galleys...

*sigh* You know that expression, "So near and yet so far?"

Yeah, sometimes publishing the books is like that.

I get it done (I think) and perfect (I hope) and then I get it in (huzzah) and then...

They send it back to me so I can do the whole damned thing one more time.

So that's what I'm doing. I'm reading it, doubting every comma, every quotation mark, every word choice, every conversation, every paragraph...

In short, I'm fighting the temptation to just scream "Fuck it. I suck, my writing sucks, I should call it a complete fucking wash and just teach in obscurity forever and evermore!!!!"

Mate called on his way home from work (he does that--I love that about him) and I told him exactly that. "Fuck it. I suck, I should give it up."

He laughed. "Oh--so we've hit 'Book submission', the final phase."

Me: "I've done this before?"

"Only the last four years or so..."

So here I come, crawling back to the blog, and you all know what I'm going to say, and I'm sure you've heard it before. It's 618 pages--seriously. 618 pages, and I have no idea whether it's good or not. You all want to know where the prayer comes from? This right here is it--this terrible doubt that any sentence of that 618 pages is worth the paper it will be typeset on.

One more time, from the heart: Holy Goddess, Merciful God, LET IT NOT SUCK.

Amen.

9 comments:

Louiz said...

If your previous work is anything to go by - there's no way it will suck.

KnitTech said...

You can't stop midway through the process. Finish the proofing, then go knit something fun.

(And the picture is working.)

ismarah said...

Man, how much am I looking forward to that doorstopper hitting my mailbox and those exquisite 7ish hours it will take me to read it, while I blissfully ignore other half, housework, schoolwork, but obviously with the dog curled up on / near me!

Lori said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog! I can't wait to start Vulnerable. It looks really good!

Roxie said...

If I didn't have to be a grownup and go administer GED tests today, I would wear the t-shirt. None the less, I will think at you with every breath, "It sucketh not, neither does it bore." But pray anyhow. Can't hurt. And strength to the proofing!

Galad said...

It will not suck, no way, no how.

This whole writing/editing thing sounds way to much like being in labor. You are just about ready to deliver so give that final push, and as KnitTech says "knit something fun" :-)

Eric said...

Wow, that's shorter than the draft I read...

Did you change the font size?

NeedleTart said...

It doesn't. 'Nuff said.

The Lady in Red said...

It doesn't suck. They never suck. Nothing you have ever written has ever sucked. So suck it up and get through the galley's so we can have something new to read. Please and thank you. :)